saying g o o d b y e is never an easy thing to do

Thursday, October 30, 2008

0 commented | life's a / 8:45 PM

I open eyes, i try to see but am blinded by the white light. I can't stand the pain, and i can't make it go away.
How could this happen to me. Got nowhere to run. I'm fading away. I'm sick of this life. How could this happen to me?!

everybody screaming, i try to make a sound but no one hear me.
i'm hanging off a thread, slipping off the edge.

This whole week isnt a very gd week. i m still sick after 6 days and now i hv lost my voice. Today is the only day that i came hm at 7pm which is d earliest. Had flashmob today! Very fun but tiring. We started w underpass, artium, bus-stop, canteen one. Damm malu but i didnt care. Those who dont know what's flashmob, go youtube it.

My life have suddenly become a mess. I'm stuck at the cross road not knowing where to turn.

the pain beneath the smile.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

0 commented | / 9:01 PM

Two 'o clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You're in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is that I got to get next to you
Yeah I got to get next to you
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
You don't know that I got to get next to you

Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

Friday, October 24, 2008

0 commented | time is running out. / 9:34 PM

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
from where you might belong

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say good-bye.

I wanted freedom
bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted!

ok. now for the update.
this past week was a busy week for me. stayed back until late night everyday for ccas. this resulted in zy being sick nw : ( typing this with block and abit runny nose and sore throat and blur vision. and of coz, i have been eating alot of junk food. : x
oh wells, sch has been fun so far! (: of coz nt the lectures and tutorials which contribued to the fun. tutorials mostly are reallly boring and i am usually stoning or playing w sly and ruth. haha.
lectures are also boring, so i am either listening to my songs on hp, or stoning or sleeping abit.

i seriously love to stone! haha. stoning is my hobby. : D
oh yea. WELCOME BACK FLO (:

i nid to do some catching up for my work or else i will die for this sem 's exam. And i m serious.
Recently, most people like to say, blah u blah so blah gd blah lei. I hear more of these, i will scream at the people! -.-

reply of tags:

syl: why are u looking for me when i see u everyday? :p hahaha. take care. loves (:
mic: haha. i am ur no 1 fan lei. how can say me like that? boo.
wen: haha. of course la. bear's song lei. roar. haha.
ruth : yeah! i m d 'man'! and syl mus stand aside. hehe. love u gal (:

Sunday, October 19, 2008

0 commented | 你是不是还在 / 9:25 PM

最近已经习惯了一个人生活
偶尔惦记那一个拥有你的我
很想知道此刻你在做些什么
独自的时候你还会不会担心我

最近我的话不多也不算寂寞
你我之间的现实如此的辽阔
如果有一天你听到我的歌飘过
那真的是我来完成在你心中的我

你是不是还在
我们曾手掌紧贴过去和未来
青春的手指扣着相知的情怀
你是不是还在还是你早已放弃我们坚持过的路
你是不是还在我们曾那么在乎的是不是爱
但愿你看到我不一样的现在
你是不是还在象我一样用力的让生命在脚地下展开.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

0 commented | sigh. / 8:14 PM

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

today wasnt a good day. It was nt becuz of the company or whatever thing that made me so : o but then i didnt felt really gd todae.
first week of sch was not bad la. it was great to be able to see ruth n syl again (: it's always nice to hv these girls around me to make me laugh, smile in my poly life. Of course, seeing other friends in sch again is great too!

So on mondae, me , ruth, syl went to play badmintion. haha. ruth bought skipping ropes too (:
So we play and play. it was great. among us three, i tink my badmintion skills d lousiest. haha. ruth's NO 1 :) syl's no 2. hahaha. then we went for lunch and slacked till miec lecture

miec lecture was bad. the lecturer wasnt very good in capturing my attention la. i keep stonining. haha. then after that, we ended around 3. We went atrium to slack and slack till 5 plus then went home.

On tuesdae, we had b stat lecture. more sian. couldnt really get what the lecturer was sayin. i dont like statistics man. : (

Ydae, we had bcommunication workshop. also sian. We had OBSE lecture after that. It was pretty useless to me. Cuz couldnt get what the lec was talking about. And i think i was stoning most of the time. The lecture hall was very noisy too. After lecture ended, i went to find joleen. We hung around then went for Pub meeting. After that was home sweet home.

Today, was late for bcomm tutorial. And today's the worst. We did citation. I completely caught no ball. Citation sucks. I think i was quite angry w myself for nt being able to do citation. I was like being not myself for the few hours.

Then we had blaw lecture. Wa. damm malu. D lecturer was very cheerpy. =x Alot of things to say. Makes me stone too. haha. She was talking about penal code 377A then after that she told d acc students and us that if we wanna go toliet or what, jus go ahead, cuz she's starting.
So, me , syl and ruth got up and walked towards d exit. She started sayin what, they are excited and girls arent interested in penal code blah blah. 0.0 damm malu. haha.

thanks ruth & syl for being so concern for me (: i m fine la. love u girls (:

reply of tags:
joc: hi jocelyn! link u soon. saw u todae (:
mic: wa. super long. haha. u jiayou (:
wen: u too. haha. (:

Sunday, October 12, 2008

0 commented | do not say forever.. / 3:38 PM

如果一切都回到从前　　　不能回头的只有感觉.
如果一切都可以改变　　　没有变的是我的怀念.
我始终没有埋怨　　　只是此刻已不想再见.
虽然悲伤已离我很远　　　只是渴望也不再流连.　

一次一次的黯然无言　　　只是没有最初的深切.
经过多少年　　一切已改变教我怎舍得与你相见.

没有永远不变的誓言唯一不变是我的怀念...

　　
　
　
　

Saturday, October 11, 2008

0 commented | : ( : ( : ( / 9:47 PM

:(

suddenly, alot of things are running through my mind now.
and it does not help that i have a very swollen gum in my left upper teeth now. and its covering my teeths : (
and i tinked i have sprained my neck. like suddenly got stroke like that.
hoho.
my days are numbering. people, do rmb to visit my funeral when i die okie. rmb bring my favourite foods to visit me. :s

suddenly, it feels like all the weight of the world are shouldered upon me.
suddenly, i m feeling so emo, sad and helplesss.
suddenly, i missed her so much even though its my fault how we ended up this way.
oh wells.
oh wells.
oh wells.
oh wells.
it is hard to find someone who can understand what you've gone through.
it is hard to find someone who is willing to be there for you up and down.
it is hard to find someone who can accept who you are.
it is hard to find someone who appreciate every things you do.

i guess my blog have been deserted for so long that even my tagboard are attracting flies due to decomposing too much. : s

boo. i feel like crying.
boo.
boo.

goinoffnow.